it seems that every time i spend more than a few days in tampa in a trip, i really start thinking about people i used to know. a few of those people i have been able to track down, but others just seem to have fallen off the face of the earth. and of the few that i have been able to find, most of them seem to have changed quite a bit since i knew them. i suppose that i too have changed, but it seems a bit different when people change so drastically. i guess that people while in high school or early in college really haven't become the people they will be for the rest of their lives. some people however don't ever change, at all. though, most of the people like that are not really people i ever knew. it is strange, but over the years i have met so many different people at school. instead of coming in with one group and leaving with them, i've been in school and got to know multiple groups of incoming freshman, and managed to graduate with one of the later groups. i have had great friends in each of the groups, but the one's i've been with most recently seem to be the ones with whom i have got along with and connected to the most. unfortunately, nearly everyone from that group is now gone, and though i have finally graduated, i'm back for more schooling. this time things may be a little more difficult though, since i am no longer taking classes with any of the newcomers, aside from the very few that are in the grad classes with me. it can be somewhat depressing thinking about how difficult it is going to be to find and meet new people. i guess that brings me back to where i started, always trying to find the people i used to know, maybe rekindle some old friendships and see if anything can happen there, though it is much more difficult than it should be in this modern day. there is one person in particular who, after a long time of searching, i found and was able to contact for a few months. however, she has since apparently disappeared once again, and i wonder if i will ever hear from her again. another person who has been a shining star in my life over the last few years has recently gone a separate way, and it is quite likely that i will never see or hear from her again. it is little things like that which bother me the most, i wish people would just stay available for their friends even after they go away from where they once were. and on that note, i think i shall call it a night and go to sleep.